I have
often said that I feel that I am a much better parent with my daughter
Scarlett, and the mistakes I made with the boys are not being made with her.
Don’t
get me wrong, when my boys were little, I was so patient, and did everything
for them. However by the time I got separated and divorced from my ex-husband, I
allowed the daily stress to direct a lot of my decisions and wasn’t nearly as
patient. In hindsight, instead of trying to work so much to make ends meet, I
should have figured out some way to spend more time with them. That is one of
my regrets. However, at the time, I felt that I was doing what was best for
them.
The simple
things are easier for me now. The phrase, “Do everything for your children” is
pretty much second nature. Perhaps it is dealing with a lot that life has
dealt; heartaches, financial issues, you name it…that stuff either makes or
breaks you. I have had my moments where breaking points were just around the
corner, but always overcame them somehow.
Taking
things day by day is still a skill that I aim to perfect, but I feel that I am
closer now than ever. I am actually strangely fulfilled. I don’t own my home,
but I have a decent place to live. I’m not in a relationship with a significant
other, but I have a very significant relationship with my children and myself.
I am by no means wealthy, but my children and I are healthy. I have
opportunities to sing, dance and act in performances, and this has always been
one of my biggest passions. I am not reporting as much right now, but I have my
blog, so I am still able to write.
Hopefully
the previous paragraph was not too sickly sweet, but oh well. I suppose you don’t
have to read it. ;-) Yes, I am also grateful for my smart ass way of thinking and somewhat dry sense of humor.
And…on
that note:
I guess
all any of us can do is try our best with the life we have and be thankful
every day for our blessings and abilities.
