For the sake of trying to keep this blog as uplifting as possible, I tend to not go into the negatives of my life that often.Yes, I try to look at the positive in almost everything as I consider myself a "glass half full" type of woman. However, I have had my nervous breakdown type symptoms.
The past two years have had many ups and downs, and I would like to say I'm a better person for it. Through all of the positive outlooks, I have had my fair share of tears, and I've felt like mentally having a breakdown, but pulled myself out of the well because I don't want my children to see giving up as an option.
Today I started getting that feeling that I'm never going to get through school. I haven't done nearly as well as I could or should have this semester. I simply took on a lot more than I should have. I was taking classes, working at the PR office, performed in an opera, and worked at Hooters. Ugh!
I made a decision today, and I'm sticking to it. Since I'm taking fourteen hours of classes starting in January, and my contract will continue as the student blogger at Vol State, I'm going to have to quit my weekend job at Hooters.
Actually, I'm going to ask my boss this weekend when I go in if I can work possibly once a month or every other month to keep my position open so that I can work the summer I graduate before going to MTSU or Western.
From a job perspective this if completely fine with me as this isn't my favorite job. I simply don't think I love being a waitress, but this has been the way I have paid for Scarlett's daycare each week. Of course, there have been times when I still haven't been able to pay, but I am seriously going to have to cut back now.
I'm not sure how much more I can cut back though. I'm sure there is a way. There simply has to be because my education and future career is important to me. I have waited entirely too long, and I can't keep putting it off. I picked a hell of a time to get divorced!
Well there you go. Life comes at you fast.
